Hi,Not to laugh, but it's so Geminian/Mercurial to try to make sense or understand your swirling emotions, LOL! But that's just it: they're emotions, meaning that the only way to make sense of them is to FEEL them. Perhaps you're not fully allowing yourself to go through those ebbs and flows?
Might I suggest quiet meditation/prayer time? Take some time to tune out and transcend your environment even if just for a while. Who knows, maybe you'll get inspired and write/speak about it.
Another thing I could suggest is trying to balance or support your elements. To boost your fire, eat peppery foods, burn candles. To support your water, go swimming, keep an aquarium. For earth, establish a consistent routine, keep a garden, buy some tumbled stones. For air, burn some incense, do some breathing exercises, or keep a journal of your experiences.
I hope I helped in some way!
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Sagittarius Rising
Cancer Sun
Aries Moon
7th House conjunction with Sun, Mercury, & Venus in Cancer opposing Jupiter & Neptune in the 1st House in Capricorn